I’m sorry in advance for the radio silence on my blog lately... life got a little out of hand but I’m getting back into the swing of things after a few months away. It’s January of my senior year of college. Wait - senior year?! Of college?! I’m shook. The questions of the century are upon me, what do you want to do after graduation? Do you want to live in Atlanta or somewhere else? Where are you looking to live? Do you want to work for Turner? What’s next?
I feel like I'm asked these questions a few times a week. Tbh. I don’t know (cue "Maybe IDK" by Jon Bellion). If I get a good job, stable income, then yes - for sure I’ll move to Atlanta. Or maybe LA or even New York. I would love to work for Turner! I would love to work in the sports and entertainment world. I could even see myself as a publicist or a casting director. But really, I don’t know what I want to do. And that’s okay because guess what - I’ll be alright.
I don’t know what I want. Which is new for me. I have always had my life pretty planned out with minor hiccups along the way (changing my college decision from UK to anywhere but UK November of my senior year of high school was one of those hiccups). Somehow they have all worked out for the better. Things happen for a reason because the Lord is looking out for me and I know things can just keep going up and up and up! I know the niche I want to work in, but not really sure how to get there successfully. The scary truth is I have less than 4 months to figure it out. How is that even possible? It feels like yesterday I was worried about whether I should get bangs again sophomore year of high school. But then again, Grandma passing away last summer seems like ages ago. Time is something I will never understand.
End of 2018 was a major hiccup. I wrecked a bike and gave myself a concussion, stitches in my head, and a torn up wrist/arm. Let’s not forget about the shattered Apple Watch my dudes! My job hunt and life after college got put on hold for the time being. My stress of the semester went out the window as I had to stop everything I was doing all at one time. You know, I asked God for a break and he sure did give me a break! Maybe not the kind I asked for, but he does that sometimes. I feel blessed. I got to go home for the entire month of December and spend quality time with my parents like I haven’t been able to do in years. I’m still finishing a few classes from last semester as I’ve started this new semester, but my incredible professors are working with me diligently! And one day - I’ll figure out my life.
So, what do I want? I want a stable job, I want friends, I want to be able to take care of my parents when they need it like they’ve always done for me, I want security, and I want to be happy. Happiness includes a lot of thing but especially good food and boy does Atlanta have that! But then again, my sister lives in LA and my immediate family lives in Kentucky & Florida... so really, I could end up anywhere.
So, cheers to my last semester of college and cheers to still not knowing what I want to do with my life. But guess what? That’s okay! So, heres to 2019! A year of being productive, figuring my next few months out, and being okay with not knowing what is next. We're almost a month in and it's on the up and up thus far. So, you know what?
I have a good feeling about this year.
-- Lex --